Assalamualaikum to all. I have not been entering anything into my blog for ages now. But the demise of my grandmum, Hajah Sumiah Omar on 9/12/08 has urged me to write in my blog. My grandma passed away at the age of 87, her face was calm and glowing. Alhamdulillah, she passed away peacefully and easily although she had suffered from a mild stroke for the past year. My uncle, Paman Halim was the one looking after her since she had the stroke, with my dad and Pamandol, occassionally helping during their free time. I was glad that I made a visit to see her on Eid Ada recently, after much hesitation that I was lazy to go over to Bangi after visiting my grand aunt at Sungai Buloh. But Allah is Great, He made me fated to see nenek Miah for the last time, I even had the chance to compliment her on her hair which I think look kinda cute on her and then I massaged her hands, and gosh, I have never done any of those all this while. I wil always remember her as the strict nenek, she always emphasize on the importance of solat and always comparing me to my sister, Sheli. Nenek Miah also always call me at home, checking on me if I am okay when abah and ibu are away on long trips etc. And I alaways thought that it should be the other way round, I should be the one checking and not her. Nenek always scold me if I don't answer the phone at home coz she is afraid that anything happens to me and will get either Pamandol or Paman Halin to check on me. I will always remember that I should appreciate what is given to me by God at all times and never take things for granted.
I am happy to see abah calm upon receiving the news that his beloved mother had left all of us, although I know that he feels very sad coz nenek is supposed to stay over at our place in Gombak from 10/12/08 onwards coz Paman Halin is leaving for Jogjakarta on 11/12/08. Abah has equipped the toilet downstairs for nenek with hot water heater and railing to ease her movement and even cleaned up the study room to accommodate nenek, but Allah is Great. During our visit to Bangi on Hari Raya, I overheard abah asking Paman Halin a lot of questions - what time nenek goes to bed, what she drinks etc. Abah was anxious and excited to have nenek staying over at his house.
Alhamdulillah, I had the opportunity to mandikan nenek although I was shivering due to the fear that I might hurt the jenazah, my legs were really shaky when I lay down on the pangkin in the kitchen of nenek's house. The moment nenek's body was laid on our lap and feet, it feels so cold and I just could not think of what is to be done next. Then we had to remove every single cloth that are on her body, her baju kurung Kedah was cut opened with scissors and the kain removed from the bottom part of her body. She was totally naked and covered with kain batik. The makcik in-charge was telling me and Sue to help clean nenek's private parts later while bathing was done but then the other makcik said that it is okay and she will do it. Water was being poured over nenek's body over and over, from air sabun, air mixed kapur barus and clean water. We were wet but satisfied that we could do our last bit as cucu for arwah nenek. Tears raced down my cheeks, looking at nenek's face. I just wish that nenek will suddenly open up her eyes and tell us that she is still alive, tapi that will be out of the world. I gosok nenek's legs and upper thighs and hold her hands and betulkan her fingers, that will be my last touch.
Nenek, I will always remember you as my dad's mum who had given birth to a wonderful and respectable son. Thank you for raising up abah to be what he is right now. Semoga roh nenek di cucuhri Rahmat dan ditempatkan di dalam golongan orang2 yang beriman. Amin. Al Fathihah
